I’m thinking about Jon.
The one thing I promised myself I wouldn’t do. The survey I just took got me to thinking about him though, and now I just want to cry. I wish I could just tell him how much he hurt me, let him know much he let me down, how disappointed in him I am. I understand that being far away from someone you “love” can put a person under pressure, but he could have handled the situation better. To tell me he can’t be in a long distance relationship gets me so angry, because neither one of us said we were in any type of relationship to begin with. I knew he was leaving, I knew we couldn’t be together, I knew we had to make the best of the small amount of time we had. But I never expected us to be in a relationship, because I knew it would make things complicated when he moved, which is why I avoided the topic in the first place. God, I can’t even think anymore. I honestly feel like calling him and ranting right now. But that won’t help anything. I should not be feeling this way during my fucking vacation, for Christ’s sake. I’m going to take an aspirin for my headache and call Amity.
So much for a vacation.
