I feel like I’m going to throw up.
Everyday, I feel worse and worse. Is this even normal? I thought that with each day that passes, things are supposed to gradually get better. I hate that I have to walk around with a huge smile on my face, pretending like I don’t care, pretending that I’m fine, pretending that the guy I’m absolutely in love with didn’t crush my heart into millions of pieces. Honestly, I’ve never felt this bad in my life. I’ve never felt this low. I wish I could let everyone know how I’m truly feeling, but then they’d just think I’m crazy. I don’t even know what I’m saying, fuck, I really fucking hate this. I wish I could just go back to New Years, and live that over and over for the rest of my life.
