I’ve been crying so much today.
After Amity called Jon cursing him out, he finally called me. To put a long and horrible story short, he basically told me he couldn’t do “this” anymore. Whatever “this” is anyway. He was just like, “I can’t do this anymore. I can’t be in a long distance relationship. It’s just too much to handle.” The whole time he’s telling me this I’m just dumbfounded because I never said we were in a relationship. We weren’t going to be anything serious, I knew that from the beginning, because I knew he was leaving around that time. He basically ended whatever we were having going on. I’m pretty sure he’s met someone else over there, but I knew it was bound to happen. He told me he would call me around ten to see how I’m doing, but I don’t even know if I want to talk to him now. I knew falling in love was going to suck. I knew it. Love is not good for me. This shit hurts way too fucking much. I’m so glad school ends this week, I can get away somewhere. I’m not even going to dare to ask him if his offer for Cali is still up, because I’m sure he’s changed his mind already.
