Amity,
I’m sorry that I have been ignoring you lately. I know I can just call and tell you this, but, this seems more formal? I don’t know, I had it all planned out better in my head. Anyway, what’s been going on is that I’ve been ignoring mostly everyone, because I’ve been so occupied with school. But you already know this, since I told you I wanted to become more involved in my schoolwork. But, another reason has… come up, I guess I could say.
Jon is back in Texas, I’m not sure how long, and I have no idea why. I just know that he’s here. I found out from Hannah, who has mutual friends with Jon. She called me a few days ago, and I just couldn’t bring myself to do anything but work. I should have called you, because I know you would’ve gave me the courage to talk to him. But I’m just not ready. I’m not ready to face my demons, or demon I should say. So, instead of worrying about why Jon is here, I distracted myself with my schoolwork. I’m going to call you later tonight, hopefully you have read this by then.
I need you more than ever. I’m so nervous and scared, and I don’t even know why. I have no reason to be scared, I mean it’s not like he’s here to kill me or anything. I guess I’m just too scared to face the guy who broke my heart into a million pieces.
If you read this before I get the chance to call you, please call me. Until then, I’ll just be doing what I’ve been doing these past few days… burying myself with schoolwork.
