March 2011
1 post
February 2011
9 posts
If I don't believe in Him, why would He believe in...
For a while, I had lost all my faith in religion and God. I’ve always considered myself Agnostic, because I was never really sure of God’s true existence. For some reason, lately I’ve regained that faith and I’m happy to say I do believe in God. I’m not Christian or Catholic, or any other religion for that matter. I just believe that God is real, and that he wants me...
I could have married you, instead I buried you.
The depths of a man’s soul cannot be measured in a manor of meters and fathoms; but rather, it is in my opinion, only quantified by his proximity to heaven and hell. It was in such a state I ushered myself past the town tavern, bursting at the seams with the sounds of laughter and drunken piano playing. Had it only been a different night, a different place, a different kind of man passing by...
January 2011
1 post
1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Closed. 2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? Nope. 3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? I tuck in the bottom but that’s it. 4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? Nope. 5. Do you like to use post-it notes? Yeah. 6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? No. 7. Would you rather be...
November 2010
2 posts
I haven't posted anything on here in forever.
I’m so used to ranting on this thing that I forgot I can talk about good things, too. So much things have happened since I last posted, so I’m not going to get into deep details about all of that, but, things are extremely great. I couldn’t be better. I have my friends, family, and school. What more could I ask for?
By the way… Jon and I are not together. We are just...
Life playlist thing.
Instructions:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Media Player, iPod, etc) 2. Put it on shuffle 3. Press play 4. For every question, type the song that’s playing 5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
Opening Credits: Color - The Maine.
Waking Up: I Heard It’s The Softest Thing Ever - A Day To Remember.
First Day of School: Good Time - Crystal Castles.
Falling in Love: As...
October 2010
1 post
September 2010
4 posts
These past few days have just been hectic and emotional. After my last post, Zach called me and said he was coming over, so I waited for that. So when my doorbell rang, I opened the door expecting Zach, but instead saw Jon. I was so shocked and confused, and I just stood there in the doorway for literally five minutes. Jon tried to hug me, but I kept backing away until we were both finally inside...
Amity,
I’m sorry that I have been ignoring you lately. I know I can just call and tell you this, but, this seems more formal? I don’t know, I had it all planned out better in my head. Anyway, what’s been going on is that I’ve been ignoring mostly everyone, because I’ve been so occupied with school. But you already know this, since I told you I wanted to become more involved...
August 2010
18 posts
I start school on Thursday.
Surprisingly, I’m actually excited! I haven’t posted anything lately, mostly because I’ve been busy with back to school things and whatnot, and tomorrow I’m just going to try and relax a little bit. Usually I’d be really upset about going back to school, or doing anything dealing with work, but I need a really good distraction from all that went on this summer. What...
July 2010
5 posts
Have your parents ever caught you drinking? No. Do you love the last boy/girl you were talking to? Yes. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? In a heartbeat. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Baking cookies. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you? Amity, I believe. Last restaurant you went to? Olive Garden. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?...
You make it sound so easy to be alive.
Self-Conclusion by The Spill Canvas has to be my favorite song ever. It’s definitely going to be on repeat all night.
Well, I'm home.
I was supposed to be back in Texas later tonight, but I miss my best friend too much so I drove early this morning. Although I hate this place, it does feel good to be home. I’ve never missed my best friend and mom so much. While Amity finishes up errands, I’m going to finish unpacking, and stuff my face. We’re probably going to spend the whole night watching stupid movies, and...
I'm thinking about Jon.
The one thing I promised myself I wouldn’t do. The survey I just took got me to thinking about him though, and now I just want to cry. I wish I could just tell him how much he hurt me, let him know much he let me down, how disappointed in him I am. I understand that being far away from someone you “love” can put a person under pressure, but he could have handled the situation...
Love is just a hoax so forget everything that you...
One thing you can’t stand is? Ignorance. What are you currently listening to? The Tide - The Spill Canvas. Can you curse around your parents? I’m nineteen, of course. Would you prefer to date someone taller, shorter, or the same height as you? Taller. What’s something that you are sick of? Heartbreak. Cliche, I know. Is it hard for you to be “just friends” with the...
June 2010
6 posts
I'm on a much needed vacation.
Which is why I haven’t been posting anything. I feel so stress-free, so relaxed, so happy. Something I haven’t felt for a while. I’ll be back in Texas on the 11th, so I’m trying to enjoy everything as much as I can.
In all this chaos, we found safety.
130 questions.. promise you won’t lie? Wow okay. Was the person you last texted single? Yes. Do you get jealous easily? Yes. What are you currently waiting for? For the pizza Amity & I ordered. Do you think more about the past, present, or future? Past. It’s a bad habit. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now? Goddammit. Honestly, did you really love...
Distraction.
Why are you in the mood you are in? Because I just saw the movie Teeth and laughed my ass off. Are you in a relationship? No. What if the last person you kissed walked out of your life? He pretty much did. Have you ever just got to the point where you felt like giving up? Yes. Have you ever stayed awake a whole night with someone of the opposite sex? Yes. Where are you? My room. Is there anything...
I feel like I'm going to throw up.
Everyday, I feel worse and worse. Is this even normal? I thought that with each day that passes, things are supposed to gradually get better. I hate that I have to walk around with a huge smile on my face, pretending like I don’t care, pretending that I’m fine, pretending that the guy I’m absolutely in love with didn’t crush my heart into millions of pieces. Honestly,...
Posting surveys to pass the time.
Do you follow rules or break them? Follow, most of the time. When you listen to a new song, do you usually play it over and over? Yes. Has anyone laid on your bed besides you? Today? Yes. Do you ever think about stuff and start crying? All the time. Three months ago, can you remember who you liked? Loved* and yes. Have you ever dreamed of someone you barely know? Yes. Who was the first person you...
May 2010
8 posts
Whatever.
How often do you drink? Never. What is the single largest item in your house? I honestly have no idea. How well can you write your name with your non dominant hand? Like a kindergartener. What color is your bedroom? Blue. What type of computer mouse do you use? Logitech. What is your earliest memory? I don’t know. Have you ever jumped off of a high dive? No. Do you take vitamins? Nope,...
I've been crying so much today.
After Amity called Jon cursing him out, he finally called me. To put a long and horrible story short, he basically told me he couldn’t do “this” anymore. Whatever “this” is anyway. He was just like, “I can’t do this anymore. I can’t be in a long distance relationship. It’s just too much to handle.” The whole time he’s telling me...
I love my best friend so fucking much.
That is all.